The moral of my last post: I’m happy. I am so freaking happy with where I am going in life.

With that being said, I’m officially done with this blog. I’m keeping it around because maybe one day I’ll want to try and go back to figure out what was going on in my head. Until then, it doesn’t matter. What matters is that I am happy and healthy.  

I never really post on here anymore. Or really take time to sit down on my laptop..

But here I am.

The past month or two have been weird for me. I’ve finally realized, after all this time, what is important in my life. I know who I should care about and what I should care about. This is my time. I’m not afraid to say I’m closing a chapter in my life anymore. 

sawdustinthebourbon:

I’m struggling, really. It’s like I’m trying so hard to be this good person, this loving, caring person, and the universe is just working against me. Constant reminders of my failures and unhappiness surround me where ever I go. 

Last night was good, it truly was, but I feel guilty for thinking so. 

I just don’t know.

I am so repulsive I can’t even. 

highrooftopdreams:

I desperately need to lose weight.

Now that I am out of the hospital and done with recruitment I will be back here more often. It’s time to get down to the studying grind again. Especially with all of the catching up I have to do.

I’m also sad I haven’t gotten to know any of the fall ‘12 Alpha Chi nuggets because I was in the hospital and went home right when I got out. 

I will never be happy no matter what it seems like. I’m so insecure with who I am. I just want to love and be loved. It’s been a long time since I’ve had that. Since high school maybe. 

I kept getting mean prank phone calls last week.

I’m having dreams about getting lost driving and driving in the dark with no headlights. 

Moving back to East Lansing on Saturday. I’m getting old.