January 2011
167 posts
Since I ate those french fries I seriously want to vomit. Not because I’m disgusted with myself, but because I feel sick to my stomach. I wasn’t supposed to have dietary restrictions but I can’t handle food with the slightest bit of grease anymore.
Things like pizza or some nachos I had the other day leave me heaving over the toilet from pain. Fuckkkkk.
I'm strange as hell, but I'm real as fuck.
Had half a handful of cheerios, a piece of wheat toast, and about seven french fries. I’m spinning in my bed because I took hydrocodone for my abdominal pain.
I had a seriously freaking wonderful day with Nick. <3
I want Nick and I to stop fighting. I want him to stop yelling at me and I want me to stop putting fuel on the fire once it’s started.
I will do anything to get away from food that can be even slightly bad for me. I was thrown down this stupid fucking path again since I got sick. I want a piece of bread? No, eat a piece of an apple. Eat a piece of pizza? As long as that means I get to take laxatives after and not eat anything else. No candy, no cookies, no fast food, no junk food. I can’t even look at it without feeling...
I feel like I am the girl who will never be...
I want to post what’s going on in my head but I hate judgement.
Why have I been doing this to myself? I can’t stop.
“I’ve always been the long-term relationship, go-home-and-meet-mom girl.”
– Sophia Bush (via milkandtea-)
01/28/2011
Went to school and didn’t take my french final, but I took my art final.
Went to Somerset with Nicholas but didn’t buy any clothes because I can’t stop trying any on. Instead I bought the Too Faced Romantic Eye kit and roll on Flowerbomb. Then Nicholas bought me a NARS Lip Gloss, I can’t remember the name. Maybe Easy Lovin? Whatever it is, it is my absolute new favorite!...
30 Healthiest Foods
nyminute:
According to Real Simple Magazine, the following are 30 super-foods to incorporate into your diet.
almonds
avocados
barley
black beans
blueberries
broccoli
bulgur
chard
chicken breasts
edamame
eggs
extra virgin olive oil
kale
kidney beans
kiwi
lentils
mushrooms
oatmeal
oranges
peanut and almond butters
pumpkin (good news, tumblr!)
quinoa
sardines
skim milk
...
01/27/2011
Nick always tells me that the way I talk about myself could be upsetting or offensive toward other people. Whatever that means. I guess I censor myself on here for that reason.
I wanted to go to bed super early, but it’s Jersday!
brookiefm44:
Song of the day
Hide and Seek 2
...
Too much on my mind to sleep.
WHY DO I LET YOU GET UNDER MY SKIN?
Because you lost yourself in your emotions and you made your choices no one is here to watch me now. I have no reason to keep my promise anymore.
Never have I been so furious with someone
Apparently it’s socially acceptable to tell your girlfriend, now ex, “I’m going to fuck another girl tonight, I already have her number dialed.” and “You’re heartless” and “I’m coming to your house to slash your tires.”
While I sat there like the fucking baby I am and didn’t say anything back. Well, I’m done. I’m out....
Help me.
FOR REAL
Going back to school tomorrow.
Tomorrow also marks the one month since I was hospitalized for a gazillion things. It seems like it was just yesterday.
Anyway, I seriously don’t even remember what it’s like to be in school.
I also really want to drink even though I have the liver of an alcoholic at 17.
If you're a real Tumblr user, you must do this.
terriblefate:
shinydangerheart:
benmeyerholz:
kabevatherandomgirl:
leopard-lady:
-pinstripes:
getaddictedtothis:
Reblog to see hidden message
L O L
I FIXED IT
oh my god
This is beautiful.
^Wonderful must say.
Hahahaha, reblogged again, it’s amazing.
hahaha oh thats lovely
mmm.
Days... (Harry Potter edition)
thelordvoldemort:
When you hate everyone and everything:
When everything is wonderful and beautiful:
When you just don’t give a damn:
When you want to die:
When you find someone lovely to have a conversation with (new or old friend):
When some prick/bitch breaks your heart:
When your friends try to cheer you up:
When all your friends don’t invite you out with a group:
...
